Sunday, July 17, 2005

the first real blog in a long time...



the last real blog was july 5... and 11 days later,some what of a real blog from me. I have been reading the troubleshooting guide for writers and hv seem to hv heightened my sense of awareness of how i am suppose to be writing(or blogging)...

My past few days in brief
Been preety sleepy for the past few days. Yesterday, was talking to hock on msn and suddenly the msn program hanged and got d/c. My com was becoming lousier and lousier by the minute so i decided to scan my com for spywares. While waiting, i took my five minutes nap and "never woke up"... It was only 10+ lah!! Hock suggested tt i shuldnt stay back in skool everyday. True. This past 2 days, i hv been stoning and sleeping and reading "A beautiful mind" in the libry. haha.... tts how exhausted i am...

Been studying wif kim and rongzhu this past few days. Where oh where has the loner in me gone to. Dunnoe if i am like the "crowd"... haha.... coz two is company and three is a crowd. If i had a girlfren, i'd prefer not having a "crowd"... if i had a girlfren. Maybe kim wun say it but i noe he must hv wanted time alone. Rite kim?? Dun worry lah kim... just tell me.. aha...

And Gp Ms tan hasnt been coming to skool this past 72 hours-- dunnoe if its a gd or a bad thing. Subu hasnt been attending skool ever since the day we last saw him -- last thursday. Heard from Suresh he got 1 week MC. Poor dude.... hope he's fine. Looks like no one in class tt bothered.... but... its really hard to pull urself together and call and ask him if anything's the matter.

Saw hock play BT yesterdae.... dunnoe whether he or his partner sucked..i think it both lah.. haha! Anw, hock really woke up from his fall(the fall in grades i mean)... and has been the more focus between the two of us. Must start to wake up.

Grandma's dream
Never in my life have i heard my grandma told anyone abt her dream.... but tis morning, me and me two bros were watching tv and she told us tt early tis morning, she wanted to go to the toilet... but then well asleep almost immediately...(its the kind of dream u get when u feel really tired that once u close ur eyes, u ll start dreaming)... well... anw, my grandma said tt she dreamt tt she was going to the toilet and when she stepped out of her room, she saw 3 people in the living room. ONe was standing near the door of her room, one was sitting in front of the tv, and one was sitting at the dining table. All three were friends from her old kampong days. And all three's no longer alive. And Grandma added tt never has she dreamt this sort of dream ever since like a long long time lah. haha..hmm....and she say this kind of dream cannot lay play one....haha.... basket...now i dun dare go out of my room at nite one.

Saw yong yesterdae
Yong finished normal distribution tutorials oready man. Wah... damn fast lah. Every time i see hock i see like he do his work very fast one.... but wahlaos... yong even faster... scary...

School of rock
Saw the picture of the top 20 bands in the ST school of rock competition on ST's LIFE! And guesss wat.... didnt expect to see THaqif inside lah. Haha... though i had wanted to tell him to join this comp... haha.... looks like he also read ST one.. heh.... and happy to see LJB inside too... though thier name now called eternal loop. THey were good at AJ Idol, but dunnoe why the champagnes won... heh....ya...

London bombing
Has been a week and 2 days since the blasts in london. Seems like they found out who the bombers are and all. As expected, though i hope they were wrong, the bombers are muslims. Young muslims.. 18-23 year olds.

The following qns were raised on the Synapse BOard outside the staff room pertaining to the Blasts... questions like why do ppl do this sort of thing. Where is the satisfaction by doing this sort of things? And how such things affect Singaporeans? ...( well, this is the gist of it lah... may hv been paraphrased wrongly)

I guess the root of the problems lies with the US, UK, and Israel. The atrocities done by these ppl on Islamic countries really build up the rage in Muslims. Ppl like me... who have no Palestinian or Afghan or Iraqi blood in me do feel the anger... the rage. WEll... tts coz the ppl underfire are my muslim brothers. WEll in religious class i went to when i was small, they dun teach radical ideas or preach fundementalism. They teach peace and tell us that all muslims are one. WE are brothers... related to one another.. i used to view this in redicule... telling myself how could the fren next to me be a relation. How could the teaher teaching me be of any relation? But now i noe how true the things i learnt in those classes.

They want democracy. They want world peace. But they go around destroying other ppl's land. Afghanistan den iraq. Whos next? Iran?? WEll ppl forgot that theres violence everyday between Israel and Palestines -- a war that will NEVER be resolved. Its things like this that makes ppl mad. Reading Nizars blog yesterdae.... he seems quite mad too... well... this being Singapore, very few dare do anything stupid. But in other countries, ppl are braver. They got nthg to lose. They dun hv houses or education to lose. No handphones to leave behind. Stuff like dat. Life's mostly revolves ard religion. And getting revenge for brothers and relatives is a high possibility. Well... ask any kid in Palestine what they want to be when they grow up, and they'll most likely say they want to be a suicide bomber. Ask any kid in Singapore and they'll say "see first"... see if i can pass my As... haha... we're cowards... they're not. Ask the fiercest fella on the street if he dares to blow himself up.... he'll say no...

Continue attacking muslims.... and ull continue being attacked. Thats why ppl do this sort of things.

Satisfaction..... there is satisfaction is violence. Seeing the twin towers crumble... and trains in madrid exploding, and buses amd trains blasting to pieces in london... is satisfaction in itself. Seriously, whether or not i see satisfaction in this events ... i wun really say. Dun want to be labelled an extremist. Haha... but i dare say satisfaction can only be felt by muslims...

How events such as this affect Singaporeans? HHAHA... i dare say no one gives a damn abt these events. Coz they "wun happen in singapore one"... our governtment so good... our military so good.... very safe one...haha... i dun think so. I anticipate similar attacks in the near future... One can say tt naturally, muslims hate the US... and Singapore supports the US...(be it for whatever reason lah)... and one day... if SG goes a step too far.... sure kena one. Casinos.... extremists see these places as places of sin. And they'll do anything to destroy it.
Well... not just extremists... muslims see places like this as places "that should not have existed in the first place".

Disclaimer
I am not an extremist. And starting from todae.... please remove the "terrorist" tag from me. Haha...

Yuying...
U told me yesterdae that my blog all very long and i told u that recently i've been writng short entries... well today's just happen to be a long one. =)


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