A world of my own invention

We've woven a web, you and I, attached to this world but a separate world of our own invention.

..... John Keats, Bright Star

When dreams come true...

If smiles could light the whole night sky, he'll flap his wings and fly. Just fly.

-M

Fly he did that starry night. He flew up high with all his might when suddenly he remembered his fear of heights. He fell. Wakey wakey! No smile can light the whole night sky. No man can fly. A dreamer could, but he knows he shouldn't.

I used to think that a dreamer's dream knows no boundaries. I've always believed in even the slimmest of possibilities. I hope and I wait no matter how long it takes. But that starry night, I realized that there are boundaries that a dreamer can't cross, gray areas that he shouldn't tread and Pandora boxes that should never be opened.

That same starry night, I realized that dreams do come true. Along with that night, came a gentle reminder that I can write all the stories I want but at the end of the day, I know a story has already been written for me.

The Heart's Affection

FRIEND: men always GIVE hope. women always hope. the outcomes are always hopeless. true?

ME: Not true. The hopeful women just havent met the right guy yet.

There'll always be two sides to a coin. Women do give us guys hope sometimes. But is hope what they're giving or is it just friendliness? Also, there are some guys who're always hoping too - hoping beyond hope for miracles to happen. The outcome, however, isn't all that hopeless. If it hopelessness that one feels, then may I suggest that one have yet to reach the final destination yet. It's hard for feelings to be mutual. A girl may have feelings for a guy but the guy might not. Likewise, I may have feelings for a girl but she may, or may not, feel the same way about me. So what do we do?

I guess one can choose to be impatient and start making a move after another to see the outcomes. Or one can simply choose to hope. Afterall, "It is He who created you from a single soul, And made its mate of like nature in order that you might dwell with her in love...." (7:189)

Finally, one cannot be faulted for being too patient and being patient does not mean that one isn't trying. To quote John Keats from the movie Bright Star, "There is a holiness to the heart's affection that you know nothing about."

The passing of Four

Reading books, writing stuffs, studying in the library, Soccer finals, Frisbee finals, misunderstandings, electric skateboarding, studying at the canteen, floorball, meeting new people, making new friends, sitting at the steps near the field under the floodlight-lit night sky watching people play frisbee, volleyball, soccer, cricket, studying at McDonalds, meeting new friend but not saying hi to new friend, attending a talk on "Singapore's Social and Political Landscape", Sunday morning soccer, more floorball, reading and writing notes, trying to do tutorials, interesting msn convos, and lots and lots of thinking.... and oh yes, the smiles too. And I also might decide to attend the upcoming Young Writers’ Seminar 2010.

This is a reflection of the passing of 4 weeks. For the first time, they hadn't been cyclic or routine. They'd been meaningful and eventful and somewhat fruitful and enjoyable. And Time flies when you're having fun. Hopefully the coming weeks will be better.