Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Killing me softly

It's been a while.

It's been a while since my eyes played tricks on me. I'm starting to see things that aren't there yet I fail to see those that are. Now is definitely not the time for me to believe what I want to believe ... but I still choose to believe what I want to. This confusion of the self is so darn foolish. Oh man...

... this is so so killing me softly. Someone strangle me please.

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Really Crappy Writing

It sucks to be in bed for most of the past two days. Fever come and go as it pleases and now that it's almost gone, the stomach is starting to feel just a little bit queasy. One thing I like about being sick though is the fact that Mama treats me like I'm still seven. The wet towel over my face, the constant reminder to take my meds and her asking me how I'm feeling. I can't help but feel loved.

On a totally separate note, that weird feeling is back again. It's the feeling that never fail to make me smile, shake my head and whisper to myself, "I must be crazy." I have no idea what the outcome of this story nor do I intend to take steps to have a rough idea of where it's heading. I shall be patient and hopes that whatever happens is for the best.

Work resumes tomorrow. I can't wait for this weekend to come. Hoping that the 2D1N trip to KL will help take my mind of army, work and anything else in between. Gonna indulge in loads of good food - I've got eyes on Secret Recipes' cakes!!

Anyways, as I type away, I realize that this entry is being written in such a crappy manner that I don't feel like publishing it at all! 3 weeks of green, sun, rain and sand have successfully sucked the creative juice out of me!! Oh wells, it happens to all writers. I just hope that in time, my words will start to flow as freely as it used to be.

Till next time, SMILE. Take time to look at what's around you. Be inspired.

Sunday, July 11, 2010

I Love You

It's been a long while since I wrote. I've been stuck in camp for the past 5 days and will be for most of the next 14. But here's a quick one to clear the cobwebs from this space of mine.

I called mama once during the past few days. She ended the call with "I love you." I only managed an "mmmmm". The kind of "mmmm" you'll give one your mum kisses you and say I love you in front of your other friends when you're a kid.

It's hard for guys to say I love you. It's hard for me to say I love you. Or "Sayang mama". I don't know why. Sometimes, it's hard to say some of the things I really want to say. The messages from the heart seems destined to reside forever in my heart.

I do love you too. And I know you know that I do.

Saturday, July 3, 2010

Some stories do come true

The Oreo Cheesecake Boy - he managed to get the cheesecake he wanted with the help of an awesome baker friend. It was a story that came to mind as I was writing the previous entry. An MSN conversation followed and 5 days later, my story became real. So, I guess some stories do come true.

*Opens the book he bought in December 09 and continues with THAT story*