Long overdue thoughts...

*vacuums the cobwebs, dead spiders and dusts*

I've not written for 17 days!! I guess that's something that's bound to happen now that I've got a life. Well, school's my life for the next 2 years and at the moment, I'm starting to love it more and more. The friends I have makes life so much enjoyable. It's amazing how the people around me look out for me and are ever so willing to help out when I'm in doubt. And yes, I can't thank them enough.

I've been around studying with friends who happen to be in the "list" and I realize they're just like anyone of us, trying to learn and understand what's on the lecture notes. I realize that the questions I find myself asking them are the questions that they ask the professors after lectures or tutorials. I realize that they still require time to think and ponder about my questions. At times, they're as clueless as I am. I realize these Dean's Listers are where they are because of hardwork, the right attitude and the right style. And their humility adds to their awesomeness.

And recently, I'm surprised at some of the things I'm willing to allow or do for the sake of my brothers' happiness. I'm also surprised when my mum told me that an old friend of mine is going to get engaged soon. He's around my age.

Sighs. Sometimes, I do wonder what lies ahead. I wonder who I'll be with. I wonder if we've met. And I wonder what she would see in someone like me. But that's just sometimes. Most times, I'll tell myself to get my academic stuffs back on track, not get too sweetly distracted and when the time comes, it comes.

A couple more weeks to my exams. Hope everyone's doing alright. Smile yeah?

The Smile

I was just .... smiling to myself as I typed away on my laptop. Mama, who walked in to iron something she's working on, asked me why I was smiling. She immediately assumed I was chatting with a girl. Like, cmon. I'm sure many of you smile as you do stuffs on the Net, right? See, ure nodding and smiling! So that's that.

Then I replied with a non-reply coz some things are better left unanswered.

Is Happiness....

The things I do in pursuit of happiness. And the exams ... well, I needed a chill pill. Play time's over. Back to serious business, until Deathly Hallows hits the big screen in 13 days.

Happiness is ....

Sometimes, some things we take for granted. Some things I take for granted.

I used to think I'll always be this happy positive guy full of positive energy, full of hope and determination to succeed in life no matter how hard life may be. But sadly, somehow I've forgotten what it feels like to be happy.

The deterioration of one's health have a direct influence on one's ability to be positive and cheerful. Ever since the freakishly high fever and killer headache suffered last Thursday, life has not been the same. Im still waiting for the day I regain my health back. My throat is feeling sore and nothing seems to make it go away. I feel more nervous and with the exams round the corner, I'm really feeling so messed up.

I don't know but for the first time in a while, I think I need help. Badly.

I miss attending trainings. I miss having the ability to concentrate. I miss liking school. I miss being distracted. I miss being healthy and happy. This, is depressing.

I hope this is temporal. I hope this is a strong reminder for me to not take things for granted. To always be grateful for everything that I have. Never should we ever take things for granted coz you'll never know when it'll be taken away from you.