Sunday, March 6, 2005

Welcome to my life.....

The day is Saturdae, March 6, 2005. I was feeling really bored the entire day. After days of doing work till late, I felt that I needed rest—plenty of it. I was walking ard aimlessly the whole day, doing nothing. Neither my school work nor house work were done. I stared at my monitor most of the afternoon… even though the com is off. I was bored…damn bored.

I woke up late today—9.30 am to be exact. Me and a couple of guys frm AJ soccer were to meet at Lavender MRT station so that we could extend our expired passport together. The meeting time was 10.00 am. Even if Singapore had Shinkansens (Japanese bullet trains) or the Maglevs trains, I wouldn’t make it in time. I had to inform them I couldn’t make it. Theres one problem—I don’t have any of their no. Ppl my age would hv all his or her pals no. stored in his or her handphone. Sadly, I dun have one. So I was like signing in and out of Messenger to see if any soccer guys were online so that I could ask for my fren’s no. It was almost 10.00….before [bOoN] Is FaRt uP.. s0 iS [hAn]-----AnD tInK [tAn] 0sO------s0 wHeRe'S B0oN hAn???[7]” came online. Got wei jia’s no. Called him and they were informed of my absence.

I had to go there sooner or later. So I bathed quikly and hurried to the building at Lavender. Went up the escalator to the second floor. OMG!! The queues were super long. Had to see which queue I had to stand in…coz there were queue for collections of passport, taking passport size photographs…and one for extension of passport – my line. After 15 minutes of queuing to get my number(8031), I realized that there’s 90+ ppl before my no. WTH!! Went out to get something to eat….came back in 15 minutes. Still had to wait for 10 minutes before counter 31 called for my number.

“Auntie” at the counter: “Yes how can I help you?”

Me: I’d like to extend my passport.

Auntie” at the counter: “Passport please.”

*I obliged*

“Auntie” at the counter: “IC please.”

*Shit*

“Auntie” at the counter: Sorry, you need an IC. Come another day.

*ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!*

Me: erm…. Ok ….thanks

Had the afternoon I mentioned earlier. Never have I been this bored before. How I felt I was like the others—going out with frens, watch movies and stuff like that. BUt the problem is…. My mama don’t like me doing all this stuff. Waste money, waste time. She’s right to a small extent. Having shared such a close bond with my Mama, I always listen to what she say—even though I may not like what she says sometimes. She’s my Mama afterall. People don’t really understand this. They say I am a lazy bugger who always gives excuses for refusing to go out with them. Which is why they aren’t even bothered to ask me out now. But sadly, I am sort of being “controlled” by my mum. It’s for my own good, she says.

Spent the night doing work and talking to some people online. I got his to say. One shuld not bother too much abt wat others hv to sae. Different people have different styles. One may try to be nice while others simply do not care about the feelings of others. Though it may be hard to ignore, I simply have to “Let it be.” It is a good advice. After all, u can’t just dispose a friend. He may be lacking in one area, but he does have his own good side. No one’s perfect. I simply have to acknowledge that. Having a conversation that both sides will enjoy is hard. It may be easy to talk to some people, but it’s not when it come to some others. The pen is said to be mightier than a sword….but words are way mightier than a pen. It hurts. This is life. Welcome to my life…..


Saturday, March 5, 2005

A loooong week...

I shall talk abt todae first. ALi saw hock todae since he first got his accident, which was onli 2 daes ago. haha. Man! Hock dislocated somthing in his arm...ok....ermm....maybe it IS his arm. Anw, he came just so he could do spa. THings really is different wif him ard.During gp....we watched a documentary frm NAt geographic....HOnour of Men: Killing of women in pakistan. My only comment: Read the Quran properly before making baseless claims! Did my GP hw after skool end. Trying to write the perfect AQ and summary. Its hard.....and i dun noe the proper way to write one. Came back after prayers...to see my seniors get their A-levels results. DAmn! It was an eye opener for me lah. Make me motivated to work harder...its so very differnet from the Os. PPl are getting Cs and Dss instead of the As i tot many would get. WAAKE UP LAH ALI! how could u be so....hmmm....DUMB? Die....U must work doubly hard now.

Had training at 5....heard ppl, J2s to be exact, will be dropped. Scared man! There were new comers....not that bad lah..HAd a short 7 aside game.....the new comers vs the lousier seven frm aj....we lost 2-0..man! Both were sue to my mistakes. Let the ball fly above me. My positioning was wrong....as always.Would sure kena dropped soon.... was feeling really down. But the seven newcomers were reduced to 3......hhaa.... Had another game soon after......played Defensive mid....ok la...lucky played better.... den while playing halfway ...saw the badminton ppl walking on the track. They were moving towards the region behind the goal post. Hock not there...haha......DUH!!...

then, out of no where....came this clearence. Ball fell onto my feet. Looked down. Aimed. Shot. Too much strength. Ball flew inches above bar. SAw the XInmin gurl. NO...NO....NOooooooooo!!!...Yes....it hit her straight on her head....oops......Then she looked giddy. She fell to the ground and was holding her head. Panic ran through me. Looked at coach. Was allowed to go take a look. Asked her if she's ok. (yeah...i noe its a dumb qn....but wat else could i sae?) Sorry.....sorry......sorry.....was all i could sae.She got back on her feet....said she was ok....still giddy perhaps......OOps....really sorry ya dear badminton girl.....almost another badminton player down....OoPs!

going to malacca in the hols....soccer-related. Going to play 2 teams there.....looking forward to it.

HIghlights of this wk
-aj out of the aj tournament...drew wif NY....had lots of chances
-hock's injury....wahlao...swing too much....see, nver warm up
-stayed back late doing hw with 2 frens....shared abt my life....started wen yuying tok abt qiuteng mother....scold QT for coming home late due to badminton.....den to my sis.....den....my bros....blah blah
-FOR the first time.....i went through so many blogs....blog hopping....and found my primary skewl fren's blog

It has been work work work for me this wk. in fact, i ve been coming home after eight everyday this wk....my first in my entire 17 years....lucky i hav an understanding mom!

Sunday, February 27, 2005

Sorrie for the long absence....

It has been ages since i wrote my last blog. Could not find the time to write something. Either that or i could not think of anything to write about. Anyway, AJ drew with YJ yesterdae...0-0... it was a great game...the best we've had so far....if only we could plae like that on a regular basis.

had a game against Greenview Sec a couple of weeks back....got trashed 6-0..but am still happy after the game. They were superb man! Excelllent in the air...with their accurate passing and crosses. Realised how different they are from AJ. Anyway, we didn't plae our full team.

will be having a game at 5 later today against Mr Koh's team. A team filled with teachers. Hopefully we can have fun there. Again, not evryone will be turning up. But i'll be goin to gain match fitness.

Will miss tonights mentor meeting. WE were invited for dinner and chit chat session at Nizam's place....but the team is more impt. so...sorry guys, i can't make it.

Have been playing this five letter game with Hock recently...whether its during lecture or outside lecture...haha.... he cant seem to beat me in our last few "encounters".....but maybe i m damn lucky lah..haha...Our last game: I had to make a final decision regarding the word... i already found out the last 4 letters of the word by my fourth try--> _ atch. The word can either be "batch", "patch", "match", "Catch","watch"...
Worried that he could try to change his word selection...i told him to write on a piece of paper the word he chose... looking at him....i chose the word "patch".......and guess what....i'm right.....haha....and he told me that he'lll spend 2 hrs looking up the dictionary for words that he could use to "make me lose"....haha
It was a great game...

And yuying and hock made me realise that i spend more time looking at my planner instead of doing the things i was supposed to do. I guess they were right. I closed my planner and manage to do a mindmap for approximation of roots. Thanks guys!!

Saturday, February 5, 2005

lowest point of this year......

The fifth wk is almost coming to an end. Finished cny deco todae. Finished chemistry spa skillA todae. Also had a friendly against NYJC todae, which I’ll talk abt in a while.

Chinese new year deco……haiz….not a class effort lah. Only some did. Its not that ppl are not participative but I think its more the class leaders fault lah, not preparing the stuffs early and getting ppl together. Ppl are willing to help. Ppl made fishes last fridae but I wonder how many of those fishes actually made in on the class display. I feel sad for them lah…

Family day nxt and still, we haven discuss wats our nxt step. Not wif the class at least. Just some ideas and no concrete conclusion. Segragations? Conflicts? Really….. Is it serious?…I dunnoe…. I dun tink so… our class is doing fairly ok lah….or maybe I’m still lagging way behind others…

Soccer…yes….soccer. Against NYJC. Beat them 2-1. Tackles flying in. More like watching wrestlemania. Unfriendly friendly. Our team played ok lah. Won through two free kicks. But at the end of the day, was feeling quite sad lah. Even though I didn’t miss headers, concede any throw ins, give away free kicks nor lose any possession … I was still sad lah. Played less than a minute I think. Getting so hyped up over nothing. Recovered from my fever for nothing. Not that I was damn good that I deserve that place… but its just a feeling nonetheless…. Worse than that of my first week in skool. Just goes to show that I really need to fight for that spot and show them what I m capable of. But overall…. this match will not be a forgettable one. But having been reminded to do reflections, here’s what I think: Never be too excited for any game(WHAT FOR?!)…and todae woke me up…I must start being aggressive…and more focused… more confident of my abilities….ITS JUST A FRIENDLY…why risk getting injured??..

….depressed…