well recently my jaw problem has sort of not become better....heh....felt worser man. Then i forgot to mention in the earlier entry tt when i got home and all just now, my mama told me tt her fren's son also got a jaw problem similar as mine and he'll be going for an operation next month.....and my mum added that they would have to stand by $5000 for the op.
Firstly.....i was intimidated by the word "operation".
Secondly, the moment i heard "$5000"...... heh....some other time perhaps..... with that $5000, it could pay for almost 4 semesters in Poly lah.....if my sis wants to go poly.....but dennagain.....heard from my mum tt she wants to go ITE.....well ite oso not tt bad lah these days.... and dennagain.....theres also my bros....they wun be staying in primary skool forever man... haha....
so i guess till the day i cant open my mouth(or i cant close my mouth)..... there will be no such thing as operation.....hah...i dun wan it to distract me frm the As....
heh....maybe when i go NS tt time....ARmy pay for me lah....hha....kk..
anw....hock teaching me electrochem...power lah......hopefully can learn sthg frm him....
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
JC Life=No life??........ well i dun think so =p
Jc life=no life.... hmm....not really lah. Its quite fun actually....well...if u had put in tt constant effort right from day 1. Coz if u ppl like me rilek rilek one.....sure say JC life=no life coz towards the last leg of the race, when everyone is like recapping and all.....u ll be relearning lah! Man....come to think of it, aiyah.....its better to leave the past behind lah...
Anw.....am blogging rather early tonite--9pm-- coz i was on the verge of losing control of myself....i m bored with entertaining myself thru reading the chem tys qns out loud.... asking myself questions out loud.... telling myself i m becoming crazier out loud..... those kind of stuff.....
....and i ran out of songs to sing to myself lah.......only me like my own singing ....heh...
tts why i feel tt i better on the com and try to transfer all the energy i have thru bloggging i guess?....well although bloggin in a way is kind of me talking to my own self, well at least i let ONLY my brain and fingers do the talking....(i gave my mouth a break).... and also...theres an audience when i blog heh.....
went out early today to deliver sambal to my aunts place. Well early oso not early lah...abt 10 liddat. I had only woke up 9 30 liddat....and instead of eating, i went to clear up my ionic equilibria....decided to do lots of tys practice....but i was only at the 2nd qn when my mum told me to deliver the sambal she cooked lah. Well there was a gathering at my aunts place and everyones gonna be there..... so..... abandoned my stuff and went there lah....
haiz....stayed there from 11 till 3 coz i cannot really like sit in peace coz i feel the urge to keep on mugging......revising... i aint gonna use the word mugging too often coz dunnoe why, it suddenly seems so negative and vulgar(??)....haha.... revision is a much nicer word to use i guess....
yah....talked to my cuz there who finished his uni and all and he was giving me advices and stuff liddat.... how i should like have an idea of where i want to be so tt at least i can work towards it.(PS: I still have no clue wat i wanna become)...
yah...and he reiterated the point that u simply have to give ur all these few months coz wat u want is grades...and to get good grades....u simply have to give ur all. ANd he told me not to think too much abt what others say....... like when they laugh at ur goals coz they noe based on ur common tests and all, u cant make it....stuff like dat.... coz ultimately, u ur ownself noe what u can achieve and basically....it is HIGHLY possible to achieve it if u put in tt extra effort into these few months.... heh....made me slightly confident and even more determined lah.....
-->Never let others stop u from achieving ur dream. Let them say what they want to say! If u noe u can do it, tts all that really matter.
so yah......oh....i didnt really talked alot at my aunts place. Was this quiet guy blah blah blah......well.... i guess i m still that small little guy who grew up in isolation almost all his life.... smiled here and there but tts abt it..... cant really help but think about school.... seems like i cant really take my mind off school.....well its good to be like this rite now....this being the last lap and all...
....and i noe tt after i succeed...,i noe i will,....... i m goin to be this changed person and do more talking and have more fun and learn how to relax and all and for once stop worrying abt school anymore.... Well, tts b4 i enter the u at least..... things will change once i step into Army coz the ppl there will be like family and all..... and yea.... ill be a different kind of guy by then....heh....but temporarily...... i ll be tt boring guy whom no one likes ....=P
...yeah...i knew blogging will do the trick for me. Feeling all so released and all... MY mind's cleared and focussed and raring to start something else...a new topic.... hmm....some other chem topics....wooohooo!!!!
Life couldnt get any better.Studies couldnt be any funner....i guess its how u look at it and how u accept failures and how u strive to make it work for u tt matters....
no wonder people in the Army wants to go back to skool. I guess this answers the question NIzar has on his blog....=P
Anw.....am blogging rather early tonite--9pm-- coz i was on the verge of losing control of myself....i m bored with entertaining myself thru reading the chem tys qns out loud.... asking myself questions out loud.... telling myself i m becoming crazier out loud..... those kind of stuff.....
....and i ran out of songs to sing to myself lah.......only me like my own singing ....heh...
tts why i feel tt i better on the com and try to transfer all the energy i have thru bloggging i guess?....well although bloggin in a way is kind of me talking to my own self, well at least i let ONLY my brain and fingers do the talking....(i gave my mouth a break).... and also...theres an audience when i blog heh.....
went out early today to deliver sambal to my aunts place. Well early oso not early lah...abt 10 liddat. I had only woke up 9 30 liddat....and instead of eating, i went to clear up my ionic equilibria....decided to do lots of tys practice....but i was only at the 2nd qn when my mum told me to deliver the sambal she cooked lah. Well there was a gathering at my aunts place and everyones gonna be there..... so..... abandoned my stuff and went there lah....
haiz....stayed there from 11 till 3 coz i cannot really like sit in peace coz i feel the urge to keep on mugging......revising... i aint gonna use the word mugging too often coz dunnoe why, it suddenly seems so negative and vulgar(??)....haha.... revision is a much nicer word to use i guess....
yah....talked to my cuz there who finished his uni and all and he was giving me advices and stuff liddat.... how i should like have an idea of where i want to be so tt at least i can work towards it.(PS: I still have no clue wat i wanna become)...
yah...and he reiterated the point that u simply have to give ur all these few months coz wat u want is grades...and to get good grades....u simply have to give ur all. ANd he told me not to think too much abt what others say....... like when they laugh at ur goals coz they noe based on ur common tests and all, u cant make it....stuff like dat.... coz ultimately, u ur ownself noe what u can achieve and basically....it is HIGHLY possible to achieve it if u put in tt extra effort into these few months.... heh....made me slightly confident and even more determined lah.....
-->Never let others stop u from achieving ur dream. Let them say what they want to say! If u noe u can do it, tts all that really matter.
so yah......oh....i didnt really talked alot at my aunts place. Was this quiet guy blah blah blah......well.... i guess i m still that small little guy who grew up in isolation almost all his life.... smiled here and there but tts abt it..... cant really help but think about school.... seems like i cant really take my mind off school.....well its good to be like this rite now....this being the last lap and all...
....and i noe tt after i succeed...,i noe i will,....... i m goin to be this changed person and do more talking and have more fun and learn how to relax and all and for once stop worrying abt school anymore.... Well, tts b4 i enter the u at least..... things will change once i step into Army coz the ppl there will be like family and all..... and yea.... ill be a different kind of guy by then....heh....but temporarily...... i ll be tt boring guy whom no one likes ....=P
...yeah...i knew blogging will do the trick for me. Feeling all so released and all... MY mind's cleared and focussed and raring to start something else...a new topic.... hmm....some other chem topics....wooohooo!!!!
Life couldnt get any better.Studies couldnt be any funner....i guess its how u look at it and how u accept failures and how u strive to make it work for u tt matters....
no wonder people in the Army wants to go back to skool. I guess this answers the question NIzar has on his blog....=P
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
DAY 15:Taking things slowly and steadily...
DAY 15: 15 more days to the Mids....
NO choice already.... rather than complain complain complain..... i rather use tt time to do things slowly(but not too slow).....and steadily....
Anw, the mids is "inconsequential" just shows how much i dunnoe lah.....and how much werk and effort i need to put in over the next few months..... and i noe tt these few months is a make-or-break period for me....heh
WOKE UP at 12pm todae....wah record for the june holidays man!! I din sleep late last nite seh....haiz....but i guess i owe myself tt additional sleep tt has been accumulating since day 1 of the hols....
ATE rice with curry for breakfast.....brunch??? yah....den took 2 hrs to clear up integration... not tt strong at it yet though, but it has became a much less scarier monster.... i guess the key to revision is to redo ur tutorials instead of doing tys.... heh.
Den started on Ionic Equilibria....and ended it by 11 just now...wah power lah. Of all the 4 parts in Ionic equilibria...part 2 makes me can't say i finished understooding it lah!! The whole of Part II notes is SO organised...NOT!!! ....and some parts are empty...(my fault for not paying attn at lecture)....ya....but its good progress....
wah today my mum got angry wif me sia. Yesterdae she ask me to water the plants and i said tmr i'll water. THen todae she said water the plants and i said tmr i'll water. ...haha.... my fault i guess....well its almost 7 lah and i wanted to sae at nite then i ll water the plants....maybe i wanted to push my luck....haha....well, it ceertainly backfired.. she said if i dun wan to water then she go water.....den she straight away take the pail of water and go outside water the plant sia.....man....i knew i shouldnt have pushed my luck wif her....
anw, got kindof mad abt it lah....but dennagain.... its my fault yea? Haha....grr....in life, relationships cant be smooth sailing all the time rite? Theres bound to be ups and downs and wats impt is tt we deal wif the downs wisely in order to save the relationship... no point being angry for nothing.....and no point getting angry for any reason watsoever coz it aint gonna do any good to u or the other person...... heh
so ya....if mum's trying to make me LOVE her less......it didnt werk....
hmms.....dindnt on the com the whole day till like at 11 todae seh.. power! I din even got tempted to on the com lah!(kk....got a bit tempted)....but yah....managed to control myself well todae.....
oh....m gonna extend my day(or night?) till abt 2 or 3 lah frm now till several days b4 skool start. Coz i think ill be doing GP during this time. I noe its impossible to do GP during the day coz its much wiser to be doing chem, maths or physics den coz i'll need a long time doing those topics.....so i'll try GP during the still of the night........heh....
and i ll take naps during the day too lah....dun wan to feel exhausted sia....
sigh..... its just a sacrifce i ll have to make for the next five mths(excl june)...147 days.... may seem like a long time...in fact it is a long time....but it ll be over before u noe its over.....
just have to make full use of every single day i have left......
focus focus focus...
i noe wat i m capable of and
i noe my own ability....
i should solely focus on my own self
and not worry abt others...
coz i noe tt others are too good for me to kp up wif
man....wonder when'll all this will be over?
NO choice already.... rather than complain complain complain..... i rather use tt time to do things slowly(but not too slow).....and steadily....
Anw, the mids is "inconsequential" just shows how much i dunnoe lah.....and how much werk and effort i need to put in over the next few months..... and i noe tt these few months is a make-or-break period for me....heh
WOKE UP at 12pm todae....wah record for the june holidays man!! I din sleep late last nite seh....haiz....but i guess i owe myself tt additional sleep tt has been accumulating since day 1 of the hols....
ATE rice with curry for breakfast.....brunch??? yah....den took 2 hrs to clear up integration... not tt strong at it yet though, but it has became a much less scarier monster.... i guess the key to revision is to redo ur tutorials instead of doing tys.... heh.
Den started on Ionic Equilibria....and ended it by 11 just now...wah power lah. Of all the 4 parts in Ionic equilibria...part 2 makes me can't say i finished understooding it lah!! The whole of Part II notes is SO organised...NOT!!! ....and some parts are empty...(my fault for not paying attn at lecture)....ya....but its good progress....
wah today my mum got angry wif me sia. Yesterdae she ask me to water the plants and i said tmr i'll water. THen todae she said water the plants and i said tmr i'll water. ...haha.... my fault i guess....well its almost 7 lah and i wanted to sae at nite then i ll water the plants....maybe i wanted to push my luck....haha....well, it ceertainly backfired.. she said if i dun wan to water then she go water.....den she straight away take the pail of water and go outside water the plant sia.....man....i knew i shouldnt have pushed my luck wif her....
anw, got kindof mad abt it lah....but dennagain.... its my fault yea? Haha....grr....in life, relationships cant be smooth sailing all the time rite? Theres bound to be ups and downs and wats impt is tt we deal wif the downs wisely in order to save the relationship... no point being angry for nothing.....and no point getting angry for any reason watsoever coz it aint gonna do any good to u or the other person...... heh
so ya....if mum's trying to make me LOVE her less......it didnt werk....
hmms.....dindnt on the com the whole day till like at 11 todae seh.. power! I din even got tempted to on the com lah!(kk....got a bit tempted)....but yah....managed to control myself well todae.....
oh....m gonna extend my day(or night?) till abt 2 or 3 lah frm now till several days b4 skool start. Coz i think ill be doing GP during this time. I noe its impossible to do GP during the day coz its much wiser to be doing chem, maths or physics den coz i'll need a long time doing those topics.....so i'll try GP during the still of the night........heh....
and i ll take naps during the day too lah....dun wan to feel exhausted sia....
sigh..... its just a sacrifce i ll have to make for the next five mths(excl june)...147 days.... may seem like a long time...in fact it is a long time....but it ll be over before u noe its over.....
just have to make full use of every single day i have left......
focus focus focus...
i noe wat i m capable of and
i noe my own ability....
i should solely focus on my own self
and not worry abt others...
coz i noe tt others are too good for me to kp up wif
man....wonder when'll all this will be over?
Monday, June 13, 2005
my sunday....
Was reading nizars blog when i realised he quoted the no. of daes we hv left to the As and he put my name there oso. DEn somehow, naturally, the fear tt i might have made a mistake came over me and i checked the calendar........and guess what.....theres more than 10 days to be added on lah! HAha...well...i guess ppl need to feel pressurised to rite? Anw, my mistake...
....began my dae early todae. Had to meet frens at Clementi at 945....so me not liking ppl who are not punctual *cough cough*..-kiddin- ..... will not be late myself. And me being tired and all....kind of like slept back after the alarm clock rang....woke up again....and slept back.....lucky not late. And guess wat time i reach? 9 45!!! Well the others were already there lah...
it was like a gathering of some sorts. We were going to Nizam, a mentor of ours lah. Well u see, we malays at aj were being attached to mentors as part of the mendaki mentorship programme. Cheem huh...but ya.... meaning me and a few other fellas were attached to tis guy....as well as another girl..... to make it seem less confusing....basically they are ppl who hv done the As already and are there to like sort of guide/help us thru lah....well nizams an economist and the girl, masnidah...a teacher?....i tink she's still studying at the uni lah.... WEll anw....we went there to just meet up and at the same time bake cookies!!
haha..... well.....all i did was stir the butter with the sugar and the egg.....other than tt i was watching tv...and tokin to his kids.
Yea....nizam had 2 kids.an 8 mth old gurl Illiyina.....and a 4 yr old boy Aaqil. HAaha.... while the others were like in the kitchen.....i was like feeding illiyina her breakfast lah.... wah so cute! So fun!! Then watch tv with Aaqil.....wah this 4 yr old kid tok alot lah. Seems damn smart for a for year old. He watches tennis and noes hus Nadal and Federer.....haha..power lah....but hav to also take note tt his parents are graduates....hehe....
And the two end up liking me....whahaHAa.... power lah......i like kids lah. see how i rather hang out with small ppl rather than wif big ppl....hehe.......i think i ll find jobs related to kids lah....haha....or maybe partner Hock in his food chain business....lol...
WE toked abt exams..... how the As is the hardest and tt once u make it to the U, its much easier.... and Nizam told me how inconsequential the Mids are....and tt the prelims are more impt....and i should like not worry too much abt the Mids....coz theres Prelims and the Alevel...
MAn..... had a great time theere... esp with the kids lah!!.... Theres a point in time while Nizam and his wife went to get lunch...and the others were baking, Illiyina was napping so me and Aaqil was watching tennis. But Aaqil wanted to see wats on channel 1....and the remotes wif me...hee....and i wanted to watch tennis....so i told him, u beat me at scissors, paper stone...we play 3 pts....if he win he get the remote....if i win i get the remote.... the score was 2-0....the kid 2...i 0....so i told him play till 5,....ended up 4-0...so ended up play till 10....he was like 8-2.....lol!... and i kind of cheated....but he won. The next thing tt happened really moved me lah. He took the remote....changed it to channel 1....changed it back to tennis.....and gave the remote to me...
and he said.... "i just want to see whats on channel one".... Man....so sweeet lah!! Coz i tot he was like my bros lah. Once they changed channel, tts it lah....haha....
Man....-touched-.......
DEn reached home at 3. So i did integration....till like 6. DEn i cant believe from 7-8 i slept lah!!! Coz after praying at 7(erms....was kind of late lah...but still can)...i lied down on the floor....for a while...and suddenly i heard my mum calling me lah...she said my cuz wating outside....and i went outside... and looked at the clock....8 o clock...haha....power lah...i tot i slept for 5 mins onli lah..... lucky still got time for the fourth prayer of the day sia...if not die....(kk....not die..but..nvm)..
yah....den did integration again till like 10+. DEn i go online ah coz was like feeling bored and all.... sien u noe sit in ur room do work....i needed to tok to ppl lah....tok abt anything lah........coz sitting in my room....theres even a point when i started thinking out loud and talk to myself lah!!
Yah.......so got ppl to tok to lah... so...at least i wun be mad or anything like tt lah.
Oh, yaz just found out i got a blog.....wahlao..how can he not have known lah.....so he may be reading it now lah....haha....this fella....wahlao...ask me dumb qns lah..kk...not dumb....but yaz, its rumour only lah....COINCIDENCe too...hehe....
kk....tts it...nitez
....began my dae early todae. Had to meet frens at Clementi at 945....so me not liking ppl who are not punctual *cough cough*..-kiddin- ..... will not be late myself. And me being tired and all....kind of like slept back after the alarm clock rang....woke up again....and slept back.....lucky not late. And guess wat time i reach? 9 45!!! Well the others were already there lah...
it was like a gathering of some sorts. We were going to Nizam, a mentor of ours lah. Well u see, we malays at aj were being attached to mentors as part of the mendaki mentorship programme. Cheem huh...but ya.... meaning me and a few other fellas were attached to tis guy....as well as another girl..... to make it seem less confusing....basically they are ppl who hv done the As already and are there to like sort of guide/help us thru lah....well nizams an economist and the girl, masnidah...a teacher?....i tink she's still studying at the uni lah.... WEll anw....we went there to just meet up and at the same time bake cookies!!
haha..... well.....all i did was stir the butter with the sugar and the egg.....other than tt i was watching tv...and tokin to his kids.
Yea....nizam had 2 kids.an 8 mth old gurl Illiyina.....and a 4 yr old boy Aaqil. HAaha.... while the others were like in the kitchen.....i was like feeding illiyina her breakfast lah.... wah so cute! So fun!! Then watch tv with Aaqil.....wah this 4 yr old kid tok alot lah. Seems damn smart for a for year old. He watches tennis and noes hus Nadal and Federer.....haha..power lah....but hav to also take note tt his parents are graduates....hehe....
And the two end up liking me....whahaHAa.... power lah......i like kids lah. see how i rather hang out with small ppl rather than wif big ppl....hehe.......i think i ll find jobs related to kids lah....haha....or maybe partner Hock in his food chain business....lol...
WE toked abt exams..... how the As is the hardest and tt once u make it to the U, its much easier.... and Nizam told me how inconsequential the Mids are....and tt the prelims are more impt....and i should like not worry too much abt the Mids....coz theres Prelims and the Alevel...
MAn..... had a great time theere... esp with the kids lah!!.... Theres a point in time while Nizam and his wife went to get lunch...and the others were baking, Illiyina was napping so me and Aaqil was watching tennis. But Aaqil wanted to see wats on channel 1....and the remotes wif me...hee....and i wanted to watch tennis....so i told him, u beat me at scissors, paper stone...we play 3 pts....if he win he get the remote....if i win i get the remote.... the score was 2-0....the kid 2...i 0....so i told him play till 5,....ended up 4-0...so ended up play till 10....he was like 8-2.....lol!... and i kind of cheated....but he won. The next thing tt happened really moved me lah. He took the remote....changed it to channel 1....changed it back to tennis.....and gave the remote to me...
and he said.... "i just want to see whats on channel one".... Man....so sweeet lah!! Coz i tot he was like my bros lah. Once they changed channel, tts it lah....haha....
Man....-touched-.......
DEn reached home at 3. So i did integration....till like 6. DEn i cant believe from 7-8 i slept lah!!! Coz after praying at 7(erms....was kind of late lah...but still can)...i lied down on the floor....for a while...and suddenly i heard my mum calling me lah...she said my cuz wating outside....and i went outside... and looked at the clock....8 o clock...haha....power lah...i tot i slept for 5 mins onli lah..... lucky still got time for the fourth prayer of the day sia...if not die....(kk....not die..but..nvm)..
yah....den did integration again till like 10+. DEn i go online ah coz was like feeling bored and all.... sien u noe sit in ur room do work....i needed to tok to ppl lah....tok abt anything lah........coz sitting in my room....theres even a point when i started thinking out loud and talk to myself lah!!
Yah.......so got ppl to tok to lah... so...at least i wun be mad or anything like tt lah.
Oh, yaz just found out i got a blog.....wahlao..how can he not have known lah.....so he may be reading it now lah....haha....this fella....wahlao...ask me dumb qns lah..kk...not dumb....but yaz, its rumour only lah....COINCIDENCe too...hehe....
kk....tts it...nitez
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