i hate days that make me feel vulnerable.

I am affected when things dun go the way it should. I am well aware that things arent always status quo. I may be telling myself that i can handle change but somehow the frustration and irritation that i try to hide simply builds up to a stage where it can actually be seen. And yes, i am aware that this is where i need to learn to work under pressure, under different circumstances, last minute changes, and such. In any workplace, things will never be ideal. In order to fit in, u either adapt or u work some place else.

Of course when ur mind is in a chaotic state, little things can irritate and make things worst. This is where patience comes in. And i realised that trying to remain calm when ur mind is in a chaotic state is dangerous. It simply makes things worse for ur head.

Commitment isnt as easy as i initally thought. Once u commit ur self to something, u simply cannot afford to run away.

And now im sleepy. Perhaps some other day i'll continue.