Friday, November 20, 2009

The Magic of Nostalgia

A friend wanted my SimonCowell-esque comment for a short piece of poetry. My first glimpse of it reminded me that despite my love for words, words in the form of poetry isn't exactly my cup of morning tea. But as always, I tried my best to understand. and I kinda understood.

Reading the story behind the poem reminded me of the story behind a "poem" that I wrote quite a while back. It was my first time writing something poetic. But it was also my last coz I feel that writing poetry makes a guy appear.... soft.

After I wrote it, I thought it was nice - it was something I felt, thought hard about, and then scribbled them down in my notebook, lying on my bed, with a pen in my hand, thinking. Reading it again tonight, I still find it nice, calm and poetic but I'm also slightly irritated that the person that wrote this hasn't changed one tiny bit. Haha...the magic of Nostalgia. Could someone just tell him where he could purchase a bottle of courage?

Lying on my bed
A pen in my hand

Wondering why she's taking so much of my time
Why she appears in most of my thoughts
My dreams

Of coz this is foolish
These things come and go
I noe

The more i try to not think abt it
The more i want to think abt it

Why i wanna forget abt it i dun noe
Why i wanna keep thinking abt it i dun noe
Actually, maybe i do

Could it be tt i like her?
Could it be tt shes come to be my special someone?
Or could it simply be me?
Am i simply thinking too much?

Should i go up to her and tell her i like her?
What then?
What if she says she likes me?
What then?
What if she says she doesnt feel the same way?
What then?
These are questions to which the answers will never surface..
Unless i make the first move...

The first move
It's ever so hard

How can i tell tt she likes me?
Is it thru the way she dresses?
The colour she wears?
The hints she drops during conversations?

How can i tell tt i like her?
Is it thru wat i wear?
The things i blog abt?
The colours of my stationaries?
The colours on my blog?

Well i guess lying on ur bed
A pen in ur hand

...That should be enuff to tell u tt u like her

Writer's Note: A friend told me to take this poem down cause others who stumble upon this public blog of mine will think that I'm 'soft' and hence, it might kill off any chances of romance that could blossom through my entries coz apparently no girl likes 'soft' guys(Precisely why it was my first and last poetry). Really?


Anonymous said...

your friend step-macho la...diff girls like diff things...
not bad for a first try...
you can write whatever you want you's a free country :)

marzuki said...

yea. But he's macho...haha. Yups, i noe diff girls like diff things like how diff guys like diff things.

Very Top Five said...

If a girl thought that poetry makes a guy 'soft' then maybe she's not the right girl.

I've never written poetry either, the feeling for me is not that it would make me soft but that it's not as interesting or enjoyable to write as prose; and also that it doesn't have the versatility.

I don't like reading poetry as much either, which I imagine has something to do with it.

marzuki said...

Yup she may not be the right one for me but I think Im gonna stick to the belief that opposites attract. Not too sure about the difference between prose and poetry though.

adib said...

I think the poem is nice. And I can see myself writing a poem. But I don't think I'm soft. And neither are you. U're just Marzuki. =)