Thursday, December 23, 2010
Deconstructing one's self
As I "deconstruct" myself, I look for flaws that lie within me and I try to "fix" it. I strive for that perfection. I am a perfectionist.
One flaw is this tendency to put others before self to the extent that I neglect my own self. Another is the constant need to reflect and think about the things I have done, am doing or about to do. According to people who have observed me sufficiently, this then makes me a less confident person. Am I? I don't think I am.
It's kinda interesting to be the subject of an analysis. The ability to look at one's self from someone else's eyes had allowed me to deconstruct myself further. Insyaallah, I'll be a better person one day.