Sometimes, a step forward takes you twenty steps backwards. Is it worth it? Is all this change worth it? At the moment, life's one hell of a rollercoaster.
He retreats back into his cave. He figured it'll be much better there. He figured he'll be a much much better person when he's in his cave. Find me in my cave.
"O Allah, I seek refuge in Thee from incapacity, from sloth, from cowardice, from miserliness, decrepitude and from torment of the grave. O Allah, grant to my soul the sense of righteousness and purify it, for Thou art the Best Purifier thereof. Thou art the Protecting friend thereof, and Guardian thereof."